As a person who is currently working hard to get their creativity and it back I can truly say that it is an extremely hard thing to do. Extremely. It’s very easy to be creative and artsy when you’re young and have nothing else to do besides school. Now, I’m not that old of course, but responsibilities are killing creativity. How can I possibly be expected to paint whimsical owl feathers after washing a slightly moldy pile of dishes? For 40 minutes!?
This picture is a third from a series of three which I’ve painted in watercolors last week. After I’ve failed to create anything else, I’ve decided to step back into my old comfort zone and paint something I like: ladies with no care for anatomy. I wanted to create something of a guideline or a muse to help me with later pictures. I named that project Inspirations and literally sighed deeply at my lack of imagination. Could that name be any more dull? But everyone starts somewhere. That’s what I’m telling myself every day. Creativity is like a muscle, you have to train it!
The first sketch took me almost a week. A sketch! I was devastated, but as the weekend approached, I gave myself some more time to work and created the second piece in one evening and third in just under two hours. Not to mention the third one, The Owl (a very imaginative title, isn’t it), almost flew off of my pen and onto the paper and has settled there as if it’s always been there.
I started coloring them and finished The Owl first. I was and still am extremely happy with it. I don’t feel that it‘s back yet though. You know it. It’s the it from: “OMG, this is it!” and “It is amazing!”. The kind of it that screams success and finished and yours when you look at the picture. The picture needs to have the it. I don’t feel that number one and two have it, but number three gives off the “catch me if you can” feeling. It is definitely near!
Number One, codenamed The Elephant, is a piece I worked on the most. As the first from the Inspiration series, it represents strength, determination, calmness and never-give-up-ness. Thus the elephant, which fit perfectly with my idea. I spent a lot of time painting, but when I finished it, it wasn’t there, at least not completely. The impulsively added tribal tattoos definitely give off the it scent.
Number Two is my biggest disappointment so far. I loved the sketch. As a representation of positive energy and laughter, the squirrel was a perfect fit. Squirrels make me happy. I screwed up at some point though, because I just don’t like it. I’m not going to throw it away obviously and I hope I can finish it later, but for now this picture doesn’t want to cooperate. I suspect it’s because I worked on the same set of pictures for too long in such an early stage of finding my creativity back.